2005

I'm not 100% sure if you can read these but I hope my scanning abilities did not fail me .

I have been nostalgic all my life. I've held on to every note, picture, movie ticket , bag check label my entire life . For some reason ( blessing or curse ) I've realized the importance of memories or looking back on life. 

When Jmn and I bought a house I brought majority of that stuff with me . Who am I kidding? When I moved out of my parents house I brought majority of my stuff with me . But for some reason I left a box of journals and a bag of notes. A couple weeks ago when my grandparents were in Seattle I went to the house and grabbed the box. THIS BOX SHOULD HAVE NEVER BEEN LEFT UNSUPERVISED.

This was a creative writing assignment from 11th grade? Sooo 2004/2005. I'm guessing it had to do with expressing how you felt about your classmates?

The change of friendships

Friendships have always meant a lot to me. Due to family squabbles I don't have family that I can hang out with . So my friends are my family . And since I am a pretty guarded person the people I pick are pretty significant to my life .

I don't use friend loosely and I don't use love loosely by any means ... Ask someone !

When I lose  a friend it's pretty devastating . The first friend  who walked out of my life happened my 2nd year of college. I can't tell you why or if I did anything but at one moment we were friends and the next day we were nothing . There were some happy birthday texts in between but they were mainly me trying to patch things together which never happened. 

A lot of y'all know my friend Creep. Creep and I went through about 2 1/2 years  of hard times which thankfully ended in me calling a mutual friend getting her number and crying on the phone for about an hour .

Most recently I have friends I use to be close to like see every day or talk on the phone every day .We live in the same town and I haven't seen them in like 4-6 months . It's a little depressing .

I realized that I was doing a little more reaching out than they did. So when I decided to take a step back I realized that my relationships were Me driven. That's never a good feelings. Then you have to give in count of the ones who get married and have children. Once someone pops out a kid it ALL changes. But is that my fault for being a 27 year old with no child? So interactions with me are even slimmer? Uh I don't know..
Oh don't make me mention "friends who only want to see you at birthday celebrations, and bars." I haven't been to the bar in a year. Is this what adulthood looks like?

Did I mention that my 3 top friends in LIFE live in TX. Like WTH!

Okay I guess I just needed to vent. I am not down with change. I am not down with giving and not receiving anything. I am also not down with friends who get married or get in a relationship and forget an entire flock of friends.  YUP
 Its my blog ill whine if I want to.
 

 

Kitchen remodel: Cabinets

Guys I tell you these cabinets make the kitchen look completely different . They also confirmed that these tan appliances have to go. You know I can not for the life of me figure out where the previous owners of our house got these appliances or why they decided to pick such an awkward tile counter top situation .