I feel like I have slowly cried this death everyday of my adult life.
After about 6 days off from work I came back and a friend left me this amazing card. " The Lisa" she calls me. ha
" But I think, maybe there is some validity in accepting that a part of you went with the person who passed. And a part of them stayed with you. "
Cue waterworks.
That is the most correct statement I have heard.
Also add Revelation 21:4
" And God shall wipe away all tears form their eyes;
and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow nor crying , neither shall there be any more pain:
for the former things are passed away.
Oh life.
Real time.
It's now been 3 months. I've gone to see her once in her new resting place. Time has not healed anything for me. I still find myself crying or on the verge of tears multiple times a day. I haven't gone to the house to see her room or get anyone of her things.
I dream just about every night about her. 2 nights ago I had s dream of her walking into a church function and she didn't sit with us. It was like I was watching her from an audience. She came in spoke to everyone at the table and sat down figiting with her long white hair that was perfectly curled under. She had on a mint shirt with a white stripe across the middle and her favorite black going out pants.
When I close my eyes I try to listen for her voice. But I already hear it fading out of my memory.
I just really miss her. I don't understand why she had to hurt and why she can't be here with us. I just pray that she understood we did everything we could to keep her safe.
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